"For I know the thoughts I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." Jer 29:11

  "It's all clear"

                  NOW I can speak, after  59 years!  

                      I am not a professional writer, but I will do the best I can to make this available.

ALL that I recall, and to present here came from innocence, from...questioning things happening that were not usual to others, not knowing who to turn to for the right answers, then finding God, then hearing His words, then reading and studying them, comparing notes, then following a hunch that God was working on something (that would change the world?), then curious what it could be, as the signs, wonders, and miracles were there leading me too, then to finally knowing THE BIG SURPRISE (which became clear and presentable in 2014-15), then finding out I HAD TO BE involved, realizing that I had become the main witness and note taker, as The Apostles who wrote far afterward of their experience with Jesus.  Whew!  After all, I now wonder how anyone could make sense of the bits and pieces if it were presented decades ago? It was my secret "with God" Mk 10:27 before all the pieces to the puzzle were gathered for the present. For decades, I kept quiet to those around me (which stunted my growth in speaking skills, but mostly I was concerned with being effectively understood and because I had to prevent any blaspheme of my holy spirit "Speak not in the ears of a fool: for he will despise the wisdom of thy words." Pro 23:9). Through the years I observed His workings as He kept adding and adding, making clearer and clearer, so that one day I could say "It's all clear" too, as the angel said to me at age 14 (following my BOLD request to The LORD "Do something!") for this day, the...


Now, my job is to spell it out for us all, and draw the picture (I'm curious myself how everything will look in this empty, new website I just purchased for all I got to show for the last 59 years "with God".  What I have been carrying around with me will finally be manifested before us all to see what was the "expected end", "According as He hath chosen us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love" Eph 1:4.  I assure you, the journey was very interesting! This is how I got to know what man calls "God" and His purpose...

"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love

God, to them who are the called according to HIS PURPOSE." Rom 8:28

The Lord works everything to come together, making sure He covers all bases to get what He

wants done, after all, giving what He does and not the spirit or tools to reveal it would make His

work in how He gave me the right mother (Jewish ancestry; the wisdom and virtues I

saw and craved growing up, she did not know her phrases fascinated me, a hint of God was in

them, yet she would never read the Bible).  "Let's shed some light on the subject" she would say >

as she flipped a switch on. I remember her to her 9 children, whenever we questioned something,

would on occasion say "Well, do I have to spell it out for you? Do I have to draw you a picture?!" 

She tried everything to get us to use what God gave us to figure things out, but unfortunately, she

never got the "love" thing down pat, maybe too many children. I assumed THAT was the reason I ran to God's arms at a very early age, until I read the Scripture "Ye have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain (will my story and His biz cards "remain" here, in books, purses, and wallets after I am gone?): that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in My name, He may give it you."Jn15:16. "For many are called, but few are chosen." Mt 22:14. Many are called on, by God, but few listen so that He can use them. My entire life confirms all of His words are true, and that He used me to bring something needed to fruition...

"GOD IS LOVE" 1Jo 4:8

Because my heart was/is always crying out "What is wrong with people?!" God's love drew me. "God is love" 1Jn 4:8, "Jesus loves you" etc...At age 4, I felt "love" (Him) easierin everything created, than "love" from people (by their fruit, as in "Ye shall know them by their fruit"). Somehow I knew the value of "love" (not the love of this world, but God's kind, a goal oriented love...having faith that if things are not right now, it will be ("People change"), for the FOREVER peace and happiness, together as "family" in heaven < my dream/hope come true). "Heaven"? " shall be given to them for whom it is prepared of My Father."Mat 20:23  < I learned many decades later what really happened to me,"The Father" made this all possible! But I couldn't figure out why all my siblings pursued the other spirits that Satan holds families hostage with, for his purpose against God's. "But as then he that was born after the fleshpersecuted him that was born after the Spirit, even so it is now."Gal 4:29


One might say "This is how God grooms a prophet for His use." Nothing will stop God's plan, no threat of

divorce just before I was conceived, no German Measles in all 5 siblings cooped up in a station wagon

moving from Toledo, Ohio to Modesto, California (early stage in womb), no losing brakes on Donner's Pass

and stirring wheel to crush me in the womb, no birth complication that required reshaping head, no long

time infestation of black widow spiders around play area, no siblings/authority abuse, no tearing up my

Bible before I could read, no suicide attempt, no guns pointed at me and one triggered, no fatal sickness,

no heart stopping for hours, no horrible car accident, no severe diving accident, no falling flat on back onto

concrete from 6 feet, no electrocution, no NDE, etc. At a time when there were no TV evangelists, internet,

Christian posts, no godly programs, magazines, tracts, etc. to influence me, His divine drawing of my spirit

to Himself, with grace and mercy spared my life, I was spared for His plan. Being born into a huge family in

1955, it didn't take me long to obviously see that I was different, like a fish out of water, no need for the hook, I jumped in the boat looking for better water!  I was called/chosen and did not know it, my spiritually dead parents and siblings secretly observed me for decades (I survived all the abuse that the devil subjects a true believer too).


                                          At age 7, before I could read, the Gideon Bible Institute visited my grade school, handed me a mini Bible and said "Jesus

                                          loves you." < That's all it took for me! Never heard (or felt) anyone loved me. This 7 year old's thoughts were "Jesus is

                                         God! because only God can see inside hearts. I BELIEVE IN LOVE TOO! That's why He loves me...I can't wait to read                                                 about Him...and find out how we can be friends so He can make my family loving and good, I will ask Him!" (If I ever felt

                                          "hope" in my life, that was the time!) did not know "Surely the Lord will do nothing, but He revealeth His secret unto His

                                          servants THE PROPHETS." Am 3:7). I excelled in reading, because I now had a PERSONAL REASON that got me wanting to read < a hint for teachers! This little Bible was my greatest possession in the world!!! I hid it under my pillow, afraid something might happen to it, could not risk the loss of this life saving treasure. Everyday I would page through, pretend I could read it, feel its silky pages, smell it, etc. A couple weeks later, the teacher embarrassed me in front of the whole class " are the only one who has not paid the $2.00 or brought the Bible back!" I looked down fighting tears in front of peers, I knew what that meant. I am the 6th child of 9, and just knew my Mom would say "If I gave to you, I would have to give to the rest of them, absolutely not!" The time came that I got up the courage to present it to her, she approached me, snatched my Jesus from my hands, flipped through the first few pages, said "That's not C..........c!" and ripped it to shreds in my face (my eyes were at her waist seeing the Bible in her hands). Gone, before I could even read one word! It was as if I witnessed the crucifixion! I stood there in horror, crying in devastating grief, thinking "My world just ended!"  If "God is love"1Jn 4:16, and " shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth..." Lk 15:7, and "Rejoice with them who do rejoice, we can be sure ALL OF HEAVEN, even GOD cried with me! She went back to what she was doing then turned around and saw me looking into the trash can at His pieces imagining tape (as band aids) but hear "And if I see you go near that, I will paddle your behind!" So I gave up and ran to my room, threw myself on the bed and cried so hard feeling hopeless.


Then, to my surprise, I hear "I know! I can make Him my invisible friend! Can't take that away from me!" ("hope" returned) < Jesus rescued me, that was His voice within me! ("My sheep hear My voice" Jn 10:27). So, I READ HIM instead, for the rest of those 18 years! (The makings of a "prophet"...first day on the job). He then said to me "Don't hate your mother, religion does that to Me." (He was instructing me Dt 4:36). Did not know all of that was biblical, until 18 years old "...if any man hear My voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with Me." Rv 3:20 < He certainly did! My first holy communion "with God (where) all things are possible" < happened at age 7. Innocently called/"chosen"...a virgin physically and spiritually < His plan for what I was to do for Him in my future. House full of kids, my childhood was lonely (spiritually). Many questions needing answered, for the first years of my life without a Bible or spiritual leader/influence, except Jesus who taught me interesting things "But the anointing which ye have received of Him abideth in you, and ye need not that any man teach you: but as the same anointing teacheth you of all things, and is truth, and is no lie, and even as it hath taught you, ye shall abide in Him."1Jn 2:27


For almost 60 years it was like gathering pieces to a puzzle that someday might make sense, examining and putting together one clue after another (wondering why these things were happening to ME). I just had to understand enough to "get" the whole picture (or should I now say "The MASTERpiece" it turned out to be?)   Before even approving myself to speak out, knowing UNDENIABLE PROOF is mandatory you are sent by God to speak, and boldly! knowing full well the consequences of being false teacher/prophet.  Unbeknown to me, THE FATHER was setting up a profound ministry, HE PLANNED thousands of years before any of us were born. And not only for myself did I constantly question each and every thing to know for sure, but for others who might find pleasure in questioning, I had to "...make full proof of thy ministry"2Ti 4:5, before even allowing myself to even think I could go forward with this mission. The Word says that His ministry leads souls to Christ and the false prophet/teacher leads souls away from Him.


May I say, holding "His hands" for 3 days and 3 nights (being "one"Jhn 17"with God"Mk 10:27) had to be the greatest of all of the over 70 miracles I witnessed and perhaps the greatest of our day? And giving me a kind of spine...from pain to healed, quiet and shy to bold speaking for His work He knew was a must have. How honored, Mary too, to be able to experience this even more so when she held "His hands" (and BODY, for 9 months) < after typing this, He revealed that "Joseph & Marie Ministries" will hold "the body of Christ"1Co 12:27 ("The Church" (HIS) together) as it develops in the spiritual womb with what He gave us, for it to be "delivered"Rm 8:1. He is calling us ALL to be perfect Mt 5:48, without spot, wrinkle, or blemish Ep 5:27, to be "one with God"2Co 13:11, Jn 17 (only I know what it takes to accomplish this church, how it must be set up). NOW, 2015, for then healing of ALL spines to face the devil's, his last stand, who is gaining power by the second, knowing his time is running out, and Christ's return is soon! Without the secrets He has revealed to me (which is in a book I am writing) that will accomplish the power this new church (HIS) needs. "The Church" (HIS) will not withstand the enemy without it.  I hold the key to the seal in Daniel, the Lord handed me the key knowledge, to be opened this day and age, so that "...the gates of hell shall not prevail against it." (Mt 16:18).

The Lord designed this ministry to gather His sheep, not scatter, as was "church" prior (in hands of wolves: Cain, Balaam, & Core spirits Jd 1:11 (schism , heresy, many ways but God's only way) in pulpits, separating us by religions ("divisions" 1Co 1:10) The Father and The Son warned us about. 


I recall the summer of 1970, a monumental conversation with God. At age 14, I was sent to the store a couple city blocks away, for a bag of groceries... 

I kept walking past the doors to the back parking lot...

went "boldly to the throne" Heb 4:16 < not knowing that is what it's called. At that time in my life, I had never read any Scripture nor acknowledged hearing any, much less that, but was thrilled decades later to find that Scripture.

Crying my heart out, as loud as possible not caring what anyone might think or hear. LOTS OF TEARS Rm 12:15, in the back parking lot of the once known Kroger store at Parkway Plaza, Maumee, Ohio (no more "Krogers", and now called "Parkway Place"   I saw recently).  Was angry that I had no one else to talk to but God. Paraphrased..."I know you're up there, I'm not stupid! It's obvious TO ME! And I know you can hear me, and see me! Come down here and face me...speak to me face to face! Now! I know You can, You can do anything You want! You know I don't hate anyone, nor want to, I love everyone you made, I do not want to be like the world who love to hate and hate to love, nor do I want to fight! Is there anyone in this world who is a nice sweet loving person? No, not anyone. I am tired of crying all the time, I wish they knew You like I do then it would be different. Why isn't there anyone nice in this world...why can't I find anyone like me? I can't trust anyone! No one appreciates my heart and they treat me bad as if I had their heart, why can't they be nice? I need someone to talk to, but there is no one who will care, they would all think it's weird if I talk about You...PLEASE, DO SOMETHING or take me out of here! I don't want to live in this wicked world! I don't fit in here, and I don't want to change to be like them...How will I ever survive in this world being this way...I don't want to be a nun like my aunt! There isn't anyone who is nice, or real, all are fake and nasty to me, even at school, the teachers even...Oh why wasn't I Mary?!  DO SOMETHING or take me out of here...etc." Said it loud enough that the whole world might hear too, hoping that there WOULD BE a good soul nearby the empty parking lot who would hear and come impress me to change my mind of how I viewed the world at 14. But no response. As usual, no one listening! (so I thought).  I cried out to God about 45 minutes my watch said. At 14 years old, I thought I had seen it all (enough). Hating all of the evil that ruined my life in this world and forever wondering why it is when everything in this world is so wonderfully made for our enjoyment (never knew the Scripture YET: "Ye that love the LORD, hate evil..." Ps 97:10 < makings of a prophet).


>>> In grade school, the teachers would catch me drawing/coloring beautiful pictures of California (made me feel better) where I was born and taken away from at 3 years old, to a raining, thundering and lightening, cold, damp, and muddy residence in Maumee, Ohio where our Dad had bought a small house on 1110 Scott Street in Maumee, Ohio (see pic below), then built it up through 12 we grew up (Dad was the hardest worker I ever knew, "Jack of all trades, Master of none" and he had a good heart but it seemed he was never around). My heart was filled with beautiful memories of a brand new brick ranch home in California, the sun, wearing sunsuits, the palm trees, ocean, mountains, fruit trees, fresh fruit off our trees, going to the beach, etc. (when our huge family was young and fun). But now living in Maumee, Ohio and sibling teenagers "out of control" and mom and dad at wits end constantly. When Mom, spoke it always ended with an exclamation mark. Horrified at what I saw and heard going on around me (spirits not like mine), spirits that hated mine, which I figured out much later in life "mine" made them feel guilty and/or jealous (favored by parents), my aunt told me. There was so much turmoil I was willing to die to get away from, before I would think to return if I knew "Recompense to no man evil for evil" Rm 12:17, "...neither be partaker of other men's sins: keep thyself pure." 1Tm 5:22 < I thought that way automatically because of the Spirit in me. I loved my heart and did not want it to be like what I abhorred, I knew there had to be a God (to give me a reason to preserve myself), a Creator who sees what is going on and will make things right. I was VERY THANKFUL to be alive, VERY THANKFUL He thought of me in order to make me, I was blessed in many ways, for anything good...I counted my blessings to stay positive in a negative, no hope, pessimistic environment.

Walking home with a bag of groceries, I ran across the first throughway..

and the split second I stopped to catch my breath in the medium, a calm and heavenly voice, about 5 inches from my right ear, says "It's all clear" < My immediate reaction? I MELTED! It was as if I had just spent 1 second getting an hour massage! and in the split second before I turned to face this entity, I said to myself "I will do everything I can to make this person my friend!" I then turned around and no one was there! I didn't know what to make of that, FOR YEARS! (Decades later, I realized that it meant "He heard you loud and clear").  But how could the voice be calm when my heart and lungs were racing from running across the road with traffic and their's wasn't? and my path WAS clear, else I could not have heard the voice. And the words were TRUTH, anything else would be for getting hit by a car!  When I stepped foot on Seventh Street (The Lord's number "7", coincidence?) I hear...


a deep manly voice, but like a broken record, "Remember your age, 14, don't forget, you are 14, remember..." etc. < surviving the shock for a whole city block, I then reasoned, turned around and in the direction of His Voice (Dt 4:36),

said "WHY?! Beeecccause YOU WON'T DO ANYTHING until I'm  50 or 60 ?!  Leave me alone!" Crying (and spooked), I ran the rest of the way home, quickly got inside the door, closed it tight and slid my back down to the floor...

and rested, hoping my mom would see me and inquire, but as usual, no one was there for me.  I was so hurt, and so sad because He was my only hope to change things, now no hope again ("for decades before He will do anything?!") ...I hated my life! (Did not know Lk 14:26).

But why "14"?  Was it the age Mary conceived...her mission? The youngest that one can be, to be considered an adult? He already came into me at age, just realized, I was half Mary's age when He came into ME! And, I was a virgin many years longer than Mary was.


Remember when I said that I yelled up at God "Do something...!!!"? I found this Scripture Feb. 2015: "Surely the LORD will do nothing, but He revealeth His secret unto His servants the prophets."Am 3:7. Well, I must be a prophet, because I am definately His servant, and He reveals to me, and am carrying around MANY be revealed NOW! and what He revealed to me is doing SOMETHING!


Don't know how this happened, but, I actually found the Scripture many years prior, but missed the part "Surely the LORD will do nothing..." and hand wrote "...He revealeth His secret unto His servants the prophets." Am 3:7 on the wall of my office, totally not discovering that piece to this puzzle (eye opening clue) until now! I do not know how this could have been missed! It must not have been the time for it to be revealed, not until typing this out NOW for others (us) did I see it.

So, "...I must be about My Father's Business"Lk 2:49...DOING SOMETHING ("with God"  Mt 19:26), as He had planned!

​"For the kingdom of heaven is as a man travelling into a far country, who called his own servants, and delivered unto them his goods. And unto one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one; to every man according to his several ability; and straightway took his journey. Then he that had received the five talents went and traded with the same, and made them other five talents. And likewise he that had received two, he also gained other two. But he that had received one went and digged in the earth, and hid his lord's money. After a long time the lord of those servants cometh, and reckoneth with them. And so he that had received five talents came and brought other five talents, saying, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me five talents: behold, I have gained beside them five talents more. His lord said unto him, Well done, thou good and faithful servant: thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord. He also that had received two talents came and said, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me two talents: behold, I have gained two other talents beside them. His lord said unto him, Well done, good and faithful servant; thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord. Then he which had received the one talent came and said, Lord, I knew thee that thou art an hard man, reaping where thou hast not sown, and gathering where thou hast not strawed: And I was afraid, and went and hid thy talent in the earth: lo, there thou hast that is thine.His lord answered and said unto him, Thou wicked and slothful servant, thou knewest that I reap where I sowed not, and gather where I have not strawed (THE LORD WILL DO NOTHING): Thou oughtest therefore to have put my money to the exchangers, and then at my coming I should have received mine own with usury. Take therefore the talent from him, and give it unto him which hath ten talents. For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath. And cast ye the unprofitable servant into outer darkness: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth. Mt 25:14-30